Vacation - All I Ever Wanted

Vacation

Had to get away

Vacation

Meant to be spent alone

The dream I'm going to share today again has to do with a hotel room/condo type of vacation with my family again. Which of course made me think of the Go-Go's song and video.  I know I have been absent with this blog, but again, it's not because I haven't been having dreams, in fact I had one a little while ago that I wanted to share, I just didn't have any time.  Today when I woke up, I knew I just needed to go ahead and plan to do a post on this one. Of course it has been over 8 hours since I woke up from the dream at the time I'm posting this, so I will not be able to remember every little bit. 

In this dream I was on vacation with my family, stepdad and mom specifically.  We were staying at my friend's condo in Colorado that I stayed at the last weekend in June.  Of course the condo in my dream wasn't anything like the real one.  This was a one story cabin type of place.  Nowhere near as nice as my friend's actual condo.  The main part of the dream was us getting ready to leave at the end of the vacation.  Me telling my stepdad that everyone needed to take the sheets off the beds to wash them before we went, and then re-make the beds. But he and my mom were going to leave me there to do it. And I had a ton of stuff that I needed to pack up and load up in my car before I could go.

Later parts of the dream had me going back to the last school I taught at for 14 years before I became a librarian at the school where I am now.  Only the school is never like the actual school.  It is a bit of a mash-up of my elementary school, Holy Cross Lutheran, and some other school my brain makes up a lot.  I had gone in for some reason, and was talking to the people there.  Not that it would be that unusual, I do still talk to a lot of those people, on Facebook, as well as attending retirement parties, and hanging out at Royals games and stuff.  But I was talking to our head secretary, who I do still talk to and see occasionally.  And she asked me if I could come in and work the registration tables before school started, even though I don't work there anymore, because they were having trouble getting the current teachers to sign up.

Those are the main parts of the dream.  I see more of the having to pack up and be left behind by family theme again.  This time having to do with vacation, but still having too much stuff to leave and move on with others.

Back to School

So I remember a little more from last night's dream.  There is a school building that morphs and changes as I go through it in the dream, but it has several of the same characteristics no matter what school I'm supposedly at in the dream.  It starts out being kind of similar to Holy Cross Lutheran School where I attended my 1st-8th grade years.  But usually I'm actually at Northgate Middle School in my dreams, where I taught for 14  years, even though the school is HCLS.  Sometimes it is a building similar to my high school, North Kansas City High School.  But when you go inside it is more confusing and lots of weird passages and such that aren't actually in my school.  In fact there tends to be many dead ends and even tunnels to get through to certain places.  One of the tunnels that always seems to show up is the hallway down in the basement of HCLS where we used to line up each day to get our lunch.  Not sure why that is still so present in my subconscious, but it is.  Then I end up back behind the school building through one of these tunnels or kind of hidden hallways.  And back there is a gym, which kind of turns into a football stadium somehow.  At first I end up back there and there is a practice going on.  Which turns into some kind of an assembly, that is an alumnae assembly for my graduating class.  So there are all these people I see that I know there.  Including the boys that I had a crush on back then.  And let's just say that this stadium is huge, like a minor league baseball team size, in fact it is no longer a football field, but now it is a baseball field.

My thoughts about where parts of this came from are varied.  I figure school is always on my mind since I am a school librarian.  When I found out yesterday that one of the school library jobs I applied for in another district was filled without me even getting to interview, I guess that is where the whole feeling left out bit, like the assembly and boys I had crushes on (that didn't ever like me back), came from.  My guess is that the football stadium part came from walking around the track in my current school's football stadium yesterday after school.  The turning into a baseball field probably comes from all the big Kansas City Royals excitement we've been having with our awesome team this year and last year.  There was definitely more to the dream.

I think that I was back in an apartment from when I was in college.  And as usual I hadn't ever officially moved out, so I had stuff in it, and needed to go move my stuff out.  And also it turned into a rental house that my aunt on my stepdad's side, well her ex-husband was living there part time while I wasn't there.  Weird, weird.  Of course sometimes he shows up in the same kind of situation but it is in a house I used to own and live in when I taught in Plattsburg, Missouri.  None of that makes any sense other than he lives in my grandma's house, but that's way near Girard, Kansas.

So I'm sharing lots of settings I guess so far for my dream journal.  Maybe I'll start remembering more of what is actually happening as I continue this blog.